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October 30, 2003
Now, I'm just annoyed. What
Now, I'm just annoyed. What the heck. I buy computer equipment for the department that I am supposed to get reimbursed for. Department doesn't have to pay for taxes. But b/c I used a regular credit card at the SCHOOL COMPUTER STORE, they charged me tax. Even if I prove that it was a department purchase, b/c it was not through a department credit card, I get slapped with the tax, and I have to pay for it. What kind of crap is that?? I am never buying stuff and getting reimbursed for it. Bleh.
Posted by szujin at 02:45 PM | Comments (1)
October 23, 2003
I have a huge-ass zit
I have a huge-ass zit on my neck. It's like it's taunting me. I can't stop picking at it. And the worst part is that it hurts like a bitch. Boo.
On the other hand, my mom visited me this weekend. I miss my mom; she is SO cool. It's weird how after you haven't seen your parents in a while, how much you realize you miss them. I picked my mom up on Saturday morning. My cousin and I bought her roses from Sam's; she was thoroughly impressed (props to Mike for the suggestion...yay romantic boyfriends, hahah). We went and did some shopping. Convinced my mom I needed a new comforter (goose down for that matter...it rocks, btw). We went home and my mom decided she really needed a nap, so she slept for like the next five hours. But, that's ok. She brought a lot of food from Taiwan, so that made me happy. On Sunday, we went to go see the Pittsburgh Opera perform "Barber of Seville." It was mad crazy good. Of course, there was about five minutes in the second act where I sort of dozed off, but that's besides the point. My mom pumped us up with caffeine during the intermission, so I had no problems enjoying the show during the second half. We went to Walnut Grill after the show, and that was really yummy too. Nice pseudo jazz band, good food, good dessert. It was pretty sweet. On Monday, I left my mom at home (boo to me), and went to school. During that time, my mom made lots of good food for us to eat (beef noodle soup, fried rice...), so when I got home, it was like paradise (ala food). On Tuesday, I went outlet mall shopping with my mom. Didn't get any school related work done, but I did get to spend lots of quality time with my mum. After she left, I felt slightly depressed for a couple of hours, but I know that I'll see her pretty soon (bro's wedding and all...). Moms are so cool *sigh*.
Posted by szujin at 01:27 PM | Comments (0)
October 14, 2003
Wow. I'm extraordinarily tired. We
Wow. I'm extraordinarily tired. We are at the PDL retreat at Nemacolin. It's a pretty spiffy hotel, if I do say so. We're listening to a billion technical talks, and 80% of them do not deal with me. The inudstry people also are not quite as related to what I do either, but overall it's been an interesting experience. We got an open bar last night, and also room service if we wanted it. So, after being at the bar until 1:15 in the morning, a bunch of us trudged up to my room and ordered wine and room service. We stayed up and talked until 3:30 in the morning, and I got up this morning at 8:00 to attend the talks this morning. I can't stop yawning, and I can't stop wishing I could be near the coffee pot. I really wanted to pay attention to this talk, but my brain has become complete mush.
Argh. Don't think I am going to be able to squeeze in any workout today. I'm too tired to do it right now which would've been the perfect moment, so shit.
Posted by szujin at 10:34 AM | Comments (0)
October 10, 2003
FUCK SCHOOL. FUCK RESEARCH. :)
FUCK SCHOOL. FUCK RESEARCH.
:)
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October 09, 2003
I'm such an attention needy
I'm such an attention needy person, I make myself sick. I'm trying so hard not to be upset, and to "shrug it off" but I have to say that I can't help but feel a little left out. I'm trying to get past it, being ok with being left out once in a while, as I always maintain that, "as long as it gets done, it's ok" when it comes to other people, but when it comes to me, I guess I would still like to be included, and that annoys me. I feel like I am only setting up a double standard, and that really pisses me off. Ugh. I should so be ok with people making plans w/o me, but I guess it sort of sucks when you felt like you were supposed to be included in the plans, as I was discussing it with them before. In particular it was one of my friends that I had been talking about reorganizing something for a while, but then when it came right down to it, he apparently decided not to include me in any of the real plans. I know I should be ok, but I'm upset, and more upset by the fact that i am upset. There was a friend of mine that was being whiny for a while about similar situations (ie social plans), and at the time I basically wrote it off as him being whiny, and now I feel like I am doing the same damn thing, and I think that's what is really pissing me off. Stupid.
Posted by szujin at 04:03 PM | Comments (1)
So, I'm slightly annoyed, even
So, I'm slightly annoyed, even though I should probably not be. So, the jist goes that I've been preparing for a talk that I'm giving at a retreat that I'm going to (it's short, so not a big deal, but I think it's still important to have the presentation down, you kno?). So, this is the first talk I've ever given, so you can imagine that I'm a little nervous about since a) it's among a lot of industry people and b) it's the first real technical talk I've ever given about my research. It's bad enough that my advisor is out of town for three weeks. But it doesn't help that although she promised to try to respond to emails, her last email included a "sorry, I can't respond to your email b/c I have bad internet connection here", which btw, I think is full of shit. So then, there is another advisor that "did work" (and there are multiple reasons why I have that in quotes) on this project, so if my advisor is out of town, she should be the one that is sort of guiding me or what not. Well, it's lovely that after my first talk, and right before my second talk she finally decides to come over and ask me how my slides are going, and that she'll come to my second practice talk. When my second practice talks rolls around, she doesn't show up. And she emails me three hours after my practice talk to tell me tha she couldn't make it. Nice. So then, she decides to show up today and tell me to re-give my practice talk to her if I wanted to. I'm sorry, but the slides were due YESTERDAY, and I gave my practice talk YESTERDAY, and I'm not really supposed to be changing my slides after I have submitted it. So excuse me if I'm not so thrilled to be giving another one when I thought maybe you would show up since you damn insisted on having your name on my project. But yeah, I'm a little annoyed at my advisor, a little annoyed at the other advisor. Grr. My analogy goes as such: feel sort of like a baby being dropped into the ocean w/o any support from my parents, and the only support I get is from FISH. You kno, like they really want to help, and hell, they do, but honestly speaking, sort of feel like they can't really help me as much as say, someone of the same species can. Dunno if that makes sense, but basically I do stuff not related to the stuff that people were helping me with do. And so, presentation wise, the way it looks and such is great, but technically speaking, I needed my advisor for the go ahead. Guess she was too busy to deal with it. Whatever.
Posted by szujin at 01:59 PM | Comments (0)
October 08, 2003
Ohmigod...my head hurts. Ugh. Maybe
Ohmigod...my head hurts. Ugh. Maybe it was the lack of caffeine in my usual dosage in the morning, and then after lunch I had a latte with half the milk, and now I'm in caffeine overdrive or something.
Anyway, this morning was good. I got up (albeit a little late) and got my teeth cleaned. I think that is the best feeling in the world: when you walk out of the dentist's office and you have zero plaque on your teeth (plus no coffee stains either!). I love running my tongue over my teeth and feeling the nice polished feeling. I know, I'm sick. No one likes going to the dentist's office, but I actually sort of look forward to it. Too bad within two weeks my teeth will not feel as clean anymore. I also learned something interesting today at the dentist's office too. Apparently, you are supposed to floss behind the last tooth and the gum. I didn't know that, but the dental hygenist said that it was pretty obvious when you didn't. Lots of people tell me that they feel no significant difference between flossing and not flossing, well then, I have to ask how come when you go to the dentist they can tell right away you didn't floss?? Maybe I just have more crap stuck between my teeth or something. I dunno, I LIKE the feeling of my teeth after I floss, even if I sometimes do a slightly half ass job. So, everyone, FLOSS. :)
One of my friends made a comment about my blog the other day, she said that I only posted "stupid" things. I'm not really sure how I am supposed to react to that. Part of me thinks that I am only posting the random dumb things on my blog, but the other part of me is like, "what if I really am that shallow?" and the only things that affect my life are, "ohmigod, I have a zit on my forehead!!" or something of that matter. Maybe my life is really that boring. Ehh...what are you gonna do.
Posted by szujin at 01:27 PM | Comments (0)
October 07, 2003
OHMIGOD. I hate computers. I
OHMIGOD. I hate computers. I have no idea why I bother. I think every computer that I own hates me. I have no idea how I do it. A perfectly normal computer, in my hands becomes a PIECE OF SHIT. Windows hates me, Linux hates me. I have THREE (count them, THREE) computers, and all of them decide they like to barf on me at least four times a day. My laptop likes to throw me off AIM all the time, and Outlook freezes ALL THE TIME. My desktop at work is retarded. Dual booted, when I try to switch over to Windows from Linux (as in, restart), the damn computer crashes and I have to TURN OFF THE COMPUTER to make the switch. My favorite is just five minutes ago, xemacs try to AUTO-SAVE for me, and died. Literally, the computer just decided that it was up and croak and make my screen unreadable. I'm not sure what I have done to piss my computers off. Adobe acrobat also hates my guts. Too bad I have to use it all the time. Everytime I open a pdf in and explorer window, I have to cross my fingers to hope that it doesn't BARF ON ME and crash my program. This ISN'T supposed to happen right? How the hell do I regulate? Argh. You kno, I think it's me, b/c I have done fresh installs, reformatted my harddrive, and done EVERYTHING, but within two weeks, it's a piece of shit again. What the heck.
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