March 16, 2004
Grr
I hate meetings where I feel like I am battling for no reason. Where apparently, my opinion doesn't matter anymore. And all of a fucking sudden I am thrust back into a position where I don't particularly agree/think/believe in the stuff I am doing. Where again it's, "lowly grad student, heed what I have to say." and then ask for my opinion, and when I say anything they tell me I am wrong.
In conversation defining what x should be:
Them: "What do you think if we define x as y?"
Me: "I think x should include y and z"
Them:"Well, maybe you should just revise your notion of x"
End of conversation.
Kind of agitated b/c felt like I was just blown off. Maybe I am just overreacting. Maybe I am just that dumb and cannot wrap my head around defintions.
-- ten minutes later --
I think in the end, I like my advisor. Pseudo-advisor is still a dick. Advisor is still cool. She came by and talked to me a little bit more about it, and actually listened to some of things I said. I still feel dumb. Bleh.
Posted by szujin at March 16, 2004 02:37 PM