July 12, 2004
Thoughts
So here is an entry that gives you a glimpse into my silly little brain:
Two things have been crossing my mind recently. One of which, I definitely need to figure out, the other, not so much, just more of a "I'm bored and so I think about these things" kind of thing.
I met up with a friend today. We had dinner and drinks and went to a video game arcade (he beat the shit out of me in this guitar playing game). He was talking about how excited he was about interning at this particular company. How it was really tiring (since he worked a bazillion hours a week), but it was really rewarding. He wasn't particularly sure what part of Industrial Design he was most passionate about, but he was really happy about ID. Then he asked me, "Are you happy?" and I just kind of sat there. I feel like I've been struggling with this question a lot recently, and the more I think about it, the more I want to say "no." And everytime I start to hesistate, every person I've talked to says, "Why the f*** are you getting a PhD then?" and I'm not really sure I know what to say. I wish I knew what I really wanted to do. I wish I could find that "niche" which would make me happy, but I'm not sure how to go about to finding it. Sometimes I feel like I am doing the right thing (ie I won't regret later on life), sometimes I just want to get the hell out. They say that all PhD students go through this, and so I wonder if maybe I'm just the same as every other student. The waves go up and down, but recently I've hit another lull.
I think I'm slightly tired...so I guess I'm not going to talk about the other stuff. Heh. It's mainly frivolous stuff anyway. :)
Posted by szujin at July 12, 2004 01:19 AM