August 03, 2004
Good bye Atlanta *sniffle*
As I sit here on my last night in Atlanta for a while, I am torn between wanting to go back to Pittsburgh and wanting to stay in Atlanta. Now that I no longer am in school here, I feel happy to visit and see all the familiar places. I realize that Atlanta isn't so bad a place (albeit the ridiculous heat, especially when the AC is broken in your house), and I realize that I miss it more than I would think. I think there is a small part of me that wants to move back, and maybe go back to the good old undergrad times, and another part of me that is happy that I am in a new place (ok, maybe Pittsburgh is not the ideal place, but it is somewhere different, I suppose). Now it is just up to seeing if this is where I want to be. Half of me thinks that I should escape and try greener pastures, the other half of me thinks that I should stick around. A perpetual fight in my head, between what I want to do, what I think I should do, what makes me happy, what depresses me. It seems I am back to the same old thing where I don't want to make a decision. I'm not sure what is right anymore. . .
Oh, on the other hand. I did get to have dinner with Dan and his wife, Anne-Marie, last night. Of course, being the horrendous guest that I was, I ended up being slightly later than expected (although, upon reading his email later, he said 7:00-7:30, and I showed up at 7:45, so it wasn't TOO bad, but I did feel bad at first when I thought it was 7:00, but that's besides the point). Dinner was really nice, their two dogs are really nice, and their apartment is nice. They make me feel like I should get married. Hahaha. Not necessarily the romantic aspects of it (ie, "I want to love and be with you forever"), but the "I have a nice place, I have new kitchen ware, I have nice china" that makes me jealous. I am so superficial and I know it. :) But yeah, it was nice to catch up with Dan and finally meet his new wife.
Today, I went out to dinner with Eric at Blue Point. That place is nice . He reminds me of the fact that getting a steady job also allows you to make nice money (ie, have awesome dinners, have a nice place, nice electronics, etc), and not have to be married. Hehhee. Of course, he is half the reason I also want to graduate and start my life. Sometimes it really feels like going to grad school just impedes me on my superficial wants in life. Heh. Think I will be quiet before everybody thinks that all I care about are these things. Heheh.
Posted by szujin at August 3, 2004 02:11 AM
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glad you liked the dinner! - you need to visit more often
Posted by: e1000 at August 4, 2004 06:23 PM
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