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March 20, 2005
Thought of the day
I know that sometimes I get down on myself. A lot of times (especially recently) I dwell on the idea that I could possibly be the stupidest person at my school (floor, work area, whatever). It's funny b/c whenever I say things like this, I know there is always someone to say to me, "You're not stupid" in the irritated "omg, WHY are we going over this situation again" tone of voice (btw, thanks otherwise I really *would* go into depths of despair). People say that no one really judges you and thinks that you shouldn't be here or what not, but I know FOR A FACT that that is not true. Sometimes I get annoyed/frustrated/pissed off at a particular person that likes to talk down to me. I guess I wouldn't mind it as much if she were right (although, being talked down to, in general, is rude), but at least half of the time she is wrong. And it's funny b/c it's not only me who feels this way, but people who don't even really talk to her realize that she is this way (rude and condescending). And they all say the same thing, "She's just not that smart. Maybe she has confidence issues which is why she acts the way she does." This doesn't make my situation any better (b/c she still acts this way), but the point of the story is that I find it humorous that people DO think other people are stupid, and they do talk about it, and I'm sure if she had confidence problems and confided that she felt dumb to somebody else, they would tell her she was not too. I can't imagine anyone saying, "Why yes xxx, you are in fact, stupid!"
So, this leads me to the weird (and albeit stupid) conclusion that perhaps, I am really dumb and the people in my vicinity are just being nice.
I think xxx really just shot my confidence to hell yesterday. Maybe that's why I am dwelling...
Posted by szujin at March 20, 2005 11:45 PM
Comments
don't feel so bad. Genius over here decided to take some things down to his car and in the process, lock himself out of his own, new place. To top it off, I wasn't wearing a jacket so I couldn't even walk anywhere. Good thing I had my phone on me. Hahaha. We all do stoopid things from time to time. Look at it this way, if you were that dumb, SOMEONE (me), would have told you.
Posted by: e1000 at March 21, 2005 09:06 PM
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