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July 29, 2005
OMG
Why I love my advisor:
me: However, I can't find the matlab tool you tell me exists that will
generate the equation for r.
her: the next step is to solve the differential equation. Do you know how to do that? The matlab tool will help you.
Because that TOTALLY answers my question. I don't actually think she read my question. Useless.
Posted by szujin at 03:47 PM | Comments (0)
Wait & Eat
Waiting for a rejection letter is FUN. Checking email just so that I don't really have "to be in suspense" anymore is retarded. Friggin A. How difficult is it to write an email that says, "you suck" and be done with it?
On the other hand. Porridge Place is still yum. Too bad the person I went with didn't like any of the stuff I ordered. Hehe. And I ate half of his stuff. Felt kind of bad. I ordered pig stomach and he was totally grossed out. WHO IS CHINESE AND DOESN'T EAT THAT STUFF. Bah. Maybe I need to reevaluate our friendship.
Last night, I played pool for the first time in like, maybe three years...I think? Maybe more. I don't really keep count, although I think the general jist of total times I've ever played is less than five. Maybe this was like the second or third time. Dunno. ANYWAY. We partnered up, Cindy + Kenny, and Jesse + me, and played for bottles of wine. Kenny was really supportive of Cindy while she was learning, while Jesse just LAUGHED AT ME. At one point in time he was like, "OMG, did you totally forget everything I showed you?" and I thought I was going to die of embarrassment. But at least we won (3 or 4 to 1, I forget), no thanks to me. But hell, now I can say I have officially "played" pool like, three times. Maybe.
EDIT : (like five hours later) I was right. Hate when I am right. Goddamnit.
Posted by szujin at 02:18 PM | Comments (0)
July 27, 2005
Huh
Sometimes, I am so scared that I am going to get hurt that I think it's totally not even worth it.
It's SO not worth it.
Posted by szujin at 08:38 AM | Comments (0)
July 22, 2005
Oh, the stupidity.
Two days ago, I decided to take a drill class. Apparently that day, they decided to focus on the lower body. So, this meant lunges, every which way. Forward lunges, backward lunges, walking lunges, kick lunges. As well as squats: sumo squats, tiny squats, jump squats (the bitchiest of course), regular squats. Interspersed with a bazillion push ups just for fun.
I was doing *all good* yesterday, but TODAY, I woke up, and I am *sore*. And the stupidest part is that my right leg is like, twenty times more sore than my left leg. How the heck does that happen? Is my right side weaker, or do I just work out lop-sidedly? I don't get it.
But see, as I am obsessive, even though I am sore as heck, I decided to do cardio this morning anyway. Let me tell you: running when your inner thighs, outer thighs, butt, calves ALL hurt is.....not smart. Especially when you get off the treadmill and you CANNOT WALK.
When I sit? I have to help myself down with my arms. It's really quite sad.
This is my favoritest feeling in the world. :)
Posted by szujin at 10:52 AM | Comments (0)
July 20, 2005
You gotta be kidding me.
MAAANNNN...
I took the fit test today. Got my results.
As I knew, I suck in the flexibility department. Super suck. "Below average" if you will.
I did THIRTY pushups, and I'm still in the AVERAGE range.
But on the bright side. I kicked ass on the aerobic capacity part. Just goes to show that a bazillion hours of step *does* do something!
Last but definitely not least, my body fat percentage went down (from when I stepped on one of those fat scales from like two years ago). So, this makes me a little bit happier. BBBUUUUTTTT. I still want one more percent. Heh.
Posted by szujin at 08:56 AM | Comments (0)
July 18, 2005
ugh
I'm being wishy-washy again. I want to leave; I want to stay. I hate the PhD, but I want to finish what I started. I want a job, but I'm afraid to look because I am afraid of rejection.
I hate when I get this way. I shouldn't really be at a crossroad in my life. In actuality, I'm basically in my third year as a grad student, leaving would almost seem like a failure. But, I can't help think that I have no idea why I am doing what I am doing. It's funny, because after I had this big blowout with my parents, they "decided" (don't get me started) that I was old enough to make my own decisions. But, I'm not really sure I know how to make decisions, or be ok with my decisions. I went to grad school because of them. I was miserable and I blamed it on them. But now, if I stay, it's really me making myself miserable.
Blah blah blah...
Posted by szujin at 10:01 PM | Comments (0)
Baby!
Ok. So I like *totally* forgot to blog about this. But I am an AUNT. AUNT. My first niece was born July 11th, 2005. Holy freaking crap I am OLD OLD OLD.
She is so cute!!!! My bro just sent me pictures. I want to die of cuteness.
Posted by szujin at 12:03 AM | Comments (0)
July 14, 2005
Yay!
Ginger got some new test shoes (from New Balance!), and she kind of likes them.
Too bad they are kind of large. Heh. Still kinda cool. :P
Posted by szujin at 11:05 PM | Comments (0)
All I have to
All I have to say is: WTF AM I DOING.
To Hotel Rwanda: I did not do you justice. And I watched the end of you TWICE.
Posted by szujin at 02:12 AM | Comments (0)
July 13, 2005
Taboooo
How weird is this. We had a *police officer* stop by because of a noise complaint.
What were we doing?
Playing TABOO. TABOO WITH NO ALCOHOL! (Ok, so like some beers to go with dinner, but not like drunken Taboo at all).
Isn't that sad? Must be suburbia or something crazy.
Posted by szujin at 12:10 AM | Comments (0)
July 11, 2005
I am a LaTex
I am a LaTex whore.
I take notes in LaTex. When the hell did LaTex become easier than NOTEPAD?!
WTF is wrong with me.
Posted by szujin at 09:30 AM | Comments (0)
July 10, 2005
Tidbits
Drinking lots of wine + going clubbing? = uber fun.
Drinking lots of wine + not drinking water = hangover up my butt.
I am feeling lazy about updating. So:
Weekend = fun.
Posted by szujin at 09:29 PM | Comments (0)
July 09, 2005
Can I be Shakira? *drool*
Can I be Shakira? *drool*
Posted by szujin at 12:02 AM | Comments (0)
July 06, 2005
Rafting
Number of mini-vacations taken: 1
Number of mosquito bites received: 5 billion (really, like 20, in like, five minutes...)
So, I went rafting this weekend on the North Stanislaus river. Was supposed to be a 3-4+, but I think since it was so late in the season, it was really a 3-3+. A little disappointing since I was expecting so much...but it was still pretty good fun. Just have to remind myself everytime I get that stupid itch to go rafting during the summer, that IF I WANT LOTS OF RAPIDS, I *MUST* GO IN SPRING.
And the mosquitoes *LOVED* me this time. I stupidly thought it was ok to wear a halter top into the woods. My back looks like I have the chicken pox, except bigger and splotchier. I am uber duber *itchy*.
Posted by szujin at 12:46 AM | Comments (0)
July 03, 2005
Travel
There is one drawback of traveling: The feeling of "Wow, I wish I were still there" that races through me everytime I read/see/remember anything remotely related to traveling.
I want another vacation to blow this last one out of my mind.
Posted by szujin at 10:50 PM | Comments (0)
July 01, 2005
Blah.
Tired, tired, tired.
My advisor is going to Tahoe tomorrow. She is bailing again *sigh*. Trying not to be annoyed as her bf is being "pig-headed", but STILL *frustration*. Man, at least I have my PA. Love the PA right now...without him, I think I would be screwed. As always...
I went to see a friend play in a Beatles cover band. Umm...yeah. No comment on the band.
On the other hand, I am really digging Lexi Street's "Monday Morning."
Posted by szujin at 12:14 AM | Comments (0)